Berlari

Berlari mengejarmu dalam senja yang meninggalkan petang

Kau sesekali menoleh memberiku celah untuk tersenyum, tapi kau tetap berlari.

Terkadang aku lelah dan berhenti, kau terus berlari bahkan sampai mataku tak mampu menangkap bayangmu lagi.

Dipersimpangan mana mungkin kau akan berbelok. Lalu muncul lagi jauh di depanku, namun masih dalam batas pandangku.

Berhenti sejenak, kau mencoba mengoyak rasaku lewat senyummu. Dan membuatku semakin layu.

Dulu aku tidak akan pernah berharap kau bisa begitu, tapi kau kini terlanjur membuatku jatuh tersipu.

Kau tetap berlari, berlari dan kau tidak akan pernah merasa lelah. Kau bilang itu kesenanganmu.

Memang, kau tidak pernah memintaku untuk berlari dibelakangmu.

Memang, kau tidak pernah memberikan harapan atas kemenanganku.

Dan meman,g ini semua hanya salahku.

Aku yang membiarkanmu memandangku seolah kaulah pemegang kuasa atas rasaku.

Namun berlari, sudah menjadi riwayatku untukmu

Something Inevitable

Hurt is something invetable, for me.
That's the reason why I have to think before I really falling in love.

Saat seseorang jatuh, ia tidak bisa memilih kemana ia akan benar-benar jatuh
Ia bisa terbang atau entah mengambang, menunggu entah menganggapnya lalu
Semua tergantung kepada siapa mereka jatuh
Aku tahu, jatuh itu sebuah risiko, untuk terluka atau berusaha menyembuhkan luka
Tapi aku berbeda dengan ia ataupun mereka
Aku jatuh bukan untuk ia, aku sudah jatuh berkali-kali untuk mereka yang namanya pernah terpatri di suatu tempat bernama fraktura
Mereka semua membekas, meninggalkan beberapa lubang yang akhirnya berusaha untuk ku tutup dengan usahaku sendiri
Mereka tak akan peduli, karena kita memiliki perasaan kita masing-masing
Ya, perasaan adalah milik kita. Dan hak kita pula untuk memilih untuk terluka atau baik-baik saja
Sering kali kita mengatakan baik-baik saja, dan disitulah kita memilih untuk terluka
Ketika kita terluka, semua akan berlaku sebaliknya. Berusaha membalikkan keadaan agar yang terjadi adalah jika kita memilih untuk baik-baik saja.
Lalu, jatuh cinta adalah sebuah luka

Naya Anindita - Never be Enough

One of my favorite song by Naya Anindita (Film maker & Co-Host Jalan-Jalan Men)
She is one of my favorite artist too, I think because she is awseemm hahaha

Naya Anindita - Never be Enough

As the weekend rolls by
Your scent still lingers in my car
And as the morning returns
Your shape still remains on my bed
But I’m up alone again
Yet I’m driving home again

Having you for the week boy isn’t always enough
Having me for the night dear doesn’t always sit right
So why don’t you give me your time
So why don’t you give me your smile and give me your morning too?
So why don’t you give me your smile and give me your weekend too?

Voice: Naya Anindita
Lyrics: Pinky Hapsari
Music: Eduardus Pradipto

source: http://soundcloud.com/ditronic/naya-anindita-never-be

You to Fix to be Fix You

When you try your best, but you don't succeed

When you get what you want, but not what you need

When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep

Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face

When you lose something you can't replace

When you love someone, but it goes to waste

Could it be worse?

What do you think the first time you heard that song?
I don't think it can relieve my bad feeling about anything, but the lyrics is memorable for me
There's a lot of memories I can remember from the past
But the question is, "Have I learned from the past?"
I don't know, but "FIX YOU" is something that I should do
I don't know who is "YOU" exactly, but I feel I just need to do that

You, how about your own?

Did you ever feel like something is missing?

Something you'll never understand

The words above is one of Coldplay's song

Coldplay is one of my favorite band

Then,

When you love someone or something,

should we have a reason for all the things we loved?

That's not

That's why we have learned from the past

Food for Your Soul

Assignment on Inter. Writing

Apa mungkin, aku sudah terlalu lelah...
HAHAHAHAHA

Dearly Beloved Friend

I thought having you is a God’s precious gift. As you had recognized me, I just a girl with her ordinary life, and face. I just admire your beauty, your smart, your heart, your manner. For simple, I admire everything about you. But I never asked to God to having your life, because I’m grateful enough to be myself today.

We shared so many things over the years. We spent so many memory to save our moments together, something to keep until we grow old tomorrow and the day after

A melody, a memory or just one picture. I feel very apreciated to all of it,

When I opened all the captured memories, I smile. On that day, it must be a happy day

I’m afraid of being forgotten. I’m afraid someday you don’t need me. I’m afraid someday you hate me. I’m afraid someday one of us walk away. I just want to be like we used to, but I hate that distance. I heard a very happy news that day, but also the sad one. You just one step closer to catch your dreams! On that day, I cried. I don’t care if that was in the center of mall. I don’t care if everyone stared at me, I just gonna cry because I’m happy, but I have to say goodbye to you later. When you left me here, I let you go to catch your dreams there

I wish you all the best, but sincerely I won’t you to forget me. That thing, always scared me when I remember you, about how are you doing there, how is your friend, is they doing good or not.

I try to always keep in touch, I mean I have tried, but sometimes you’re disappear. It’s makes me more scary to lose you just because the distance separated us.

You’re beautiful and humble, that’s why so many boys come to you and want to be your boyfriend.

I envy you, quitely. That is a words I never told your before.

I’m happy, although I envy. Everything will be alright with you here, at least I have someone who called me her bestfriend. So far, what’s on your mind about all of my words?

But then, we left something unspoken. Never realized I’ll lose something I really love

I thought I told you so many secret that I have. I thought, I told you a whole of my feelings about what happened yesterday, what is happens today, and what will happen tomorrow.

I’d like to say, I’m sorry... If I never asked you about everything you want to tell me, if I ever underestimated you, if I never know what do you feel. I think, without a request, you have me beside you to listen all your problems.

But time is running so fast, I knew you hide everything you won’t me know. It’s hurt indeed

I just trying to face the truth without any fear. But it success to make my tears falling swiftly
Someone I love, someone I trust, someone I called.... God’s precious gift, she ran way. Running too fast and I can’t catch her anymore. I think, she changed, become someone I didn’t know.

And I thought, I lost you.  I’m sorry I’m  not hold you tight.

I’m sorry, I’m not good enough to be your beloved friend

To me, you’re my dearly beloved friend I’ve ever had

But maybe, I takes everything for granted. God is good, and everything happens for a reason. However, I don’t know what is today, I still have a time to think it tomorrow about what God is really want.

My life is just me, why I was born to be like this isn’t a mistake. God always doing good. But still, I don’t know why I’m not good enough for anyone that I love.

And now, I can’t hold my teardrops...

Waktu

Dulu,

Aku mencintaimu bak seorang pujangga takut kehilangan kata-kata

Aku melihatmu seolah kau lah jawaban dari setiap pertanyaan

Aku berpikir tentangmu setiap waktu dan berharap kau ada disisiku

Kemarin,

Aku mencintaimu tak lagi sama seperti dulu

Aku melihatmu sebagai seseorang yang ada dimasa lalu

Aku berpikir tentangmu tapi penyesalan ada dibenakku

Hari ini,

Aku mencintaimu sudah tak akan seperti kemarin

Aku melihatmu sebagai seseorang yang sudah sama sekali berbeda

Aku berpikir tentangmu,

Tentang bagaimana dulu aku mencintaimu

Tentang bagaimana kemarin aku melihatmu

Tentang bagaimana hari ini aku berpikir tentangmu

Semuanya sudah berjalan sesuai waktu

Namun aku hanya ingin mengakui,

diam-diam aku masih selalu memperhatikanmu untuk terus mencintaimu, melihatmu dan akan terus berpikir tentangmu

Dalam dimensi yang sudah tak akan sama seperti waktu yang akan terus merotasi

Yellow Acoustic Guitar (Coldplay Cover)

Happy-BeeFriends!

Rekonsiliasi

Waktu berjalan
dimiliki oleh dulu, kemarin, sekarang, besok atau masa depan

Saat jam kembali berdentang
Ingatkan aku sesuatu akan datang
Tentang masalah yang dulu kami tinggalkan
Kapan yang telah lama kunantikan
Tanpa ku tahu jawaban kapan akan benar-benar datang

Dulu ku letakkan puing masalah itu dalam waktu
Berharap kapan akan datang dan merekonsiliasikannya secara otomatis

Bahkan aku tak tahu apa definisi dari kapan itu sebenarnya
Sesal kadang datang menggelayuti
Tapi bukan salah waktu jika rekonsiliasi itu tak pernah terjadi
Aku tak pernah mau semuanya menjadi seperti ini,
sekarang ini

Lalu kapan?
atau, sebenarnya sudah menjadi masa lalu
dan rekonsiliasi itu hanya sesuatu yang tabu