Dearly Beloved Friend

I thought having you is a God’s precious gift. As you had recognized me, I just a girl with her ordinary life, and face. I just admire your beauty, your smart, your heart, your manner. For simple, I admire everything about you. But I never asked to God to having your life, because I’m grateful enough to be myself today.

We shared so many things over the years. We spent so many memory to save our moments together, something to keep until we grow old tomorrow and the day after

A melody, a memory or just one picture. I feel very apreciated to all of it,

When I opened all the captured memories, I smile. On that day, it must be a happy day

I’m afraid of being forgotten. I’m afraid someday you don’t need me. I’m afraid someday you hate me. I’m afraid someday one of us walk away. I just want to be like we used to, but I hate that distance. I heard a very happy news that day, but also the sad one. You just one step closer to catch your dreams! On that day, I cried. I don’t care if that was in the center of mall. I don’t care if everyone stared at me, I just gonna cry because I’m happy, but I have to say goodbye to you later. When you left me here, I let you go to catch your dreams there

I wish you all the best, but sincerely I won’t you to forget me. That thing, always scared me when I remember you, about how are you doing there, how is your friend, is they doing good or not.

I try to always keep in touch, I mean I have tried, but sometimes you’re disappear. It’s makes me more scary to lose you just because the distance separated us.

You’re beautiful and humble, that’s why so many boys come to you and want to be your boyfriend.

I envy you, quitely. That is a words I never told your before.

I’m happy, although I envy. Everything will be alright with you here, at least I have someone who called me her bestfriend. So far, what’s on your mind about all of my words?

But then, we left something unspoken. Never realized I’ll lose something I really love

I thought I told you so many secret that I have. I thought, I told you a whole of my feelings about what happened yesterday, what is happens today, and what will happen tomorrow.

I’d like to say, I’m sorry... If I never asked you about everything you want to tell me, if I ever underestimated you, if I never know what do you feel. I think, without a request, you have me beside you to listen all your problems.

But time is running so fast, I knew you hide everything you won’t me know. It’s hurt indeed

I just trying to face the truth without any fear. But it success to make my tears falling swiftly
Someone I love, someone I trust, someone I called.... God’s precious gift, she ran way. Running too fast and I can’t catch her anymore. I think, she changed, become someone I didn’t know.

And I thought, I lost you.  I’m sorry I’m  not hold you tight.

I’m sorry, I’m not good enough to be your beloved friend

To me, you’re my dearly beloved friend I’ve ever had

But maybe, I takes everything for granted. God is good, and everything happens for a reason. However, I don’t know what is today, I still have a time to think it tomorrow about what God is really want.

My life is just me, why I was born to be like this isn’t a mistake. God always doing good. But still, I don’t know why I’m not good enough for anyone that I love.

And now, I can’t hold my teardrops...